An overwhelming sense ...
This morning I was awaken. It was as if something told me, Briana you need to wake up. I jumped out of bed with a terrible headache, took some medicine and laid back down. I was still awake, my eyes just wouldn't close.. I grabbed some head phones and put on one of my favorite albums. Turned up the music and laid there and listened to every song.. While I laid there listening to music and staring at the ceiling, all I did was think. I thought about all the good things in my life, all the bad, and the things I'm working on. And I came to a realization. As I am listening to each song I am getting stronger and more motivated to do the things that need to get and done a day face my day.. It's not like any of the songs on this album I'm listening to were really motivational. It's just that when I finally took some time turn off the world and turn up my music I finally had clear vision. I wasn't clouded under depression of unpaid bills and debt or the helplessness that I feel when I see people close to me struggle. I finally saw that my life is one quick adjustment from being everything that I want it to be. I am this close to realizing some personal goals and living some dreams. It was as if someone came to me and said "Girl, your gonna be ok". After wondering why this feeling of hope suddenly came over me and crying because I was for some reason I was suddenly overcome with so much joy. I realised that this morning it was God who woke me up put of my sleep and told me to put on music, and came into my head made me feel like finally, after so long of worrying and falling down and seeing others fall around me, that everything was going to be ok and I just need to wait a little longer. I just need to push that much further, I just need to have FAITH for a little while longer. I need keep my hope. Because my time is coming. And then it was him who told me that I just need to start writing about my feelings in this moment. I love to write and I have for most of my life, but this was one of my first times feeling such an urge to do so, without having any idea what I was writing about. I just needed to get it out. So today, I thank God once more for waking me up and giving me the overwhelming joy that I feel. So, if you are feeling low or hopeless this is my advice to you. Just hold on, for your time is soon coming. You don't have to believe in God to have faith, you just have to feel it and hold onto it. Go out into the world, face the day, and know that soon, maybe not today or tomorrow, but soon you will feel this joy and you will be ok.
